Journey to the End of the Cigarette
Allow me to give a little back information to you. I am a 33 year old male. I am 6'3" and 263 lbs. I had my first smoke when I was thirteen. It was summer break and my friends and I stole 2 smokes from our parents. I didn't want to partake but the peer pressure was intense. At this point in my life no one really understood the importance of educating youth on reasons not to smoke. So here I was smoking this cigarette and getting sick off of it but forcing myself to do it so my friends would think I was cool. That was the first regrettable mistake I made in my life. By the time I was 15 I was smoking 8-10 cigarettes a day. When my parents caught me and grounded me I found ways to smoke to spite them. I guess I showed them. When I was 18 I was up to a pack a day and by 19 I was close to 2 packs a day. At this point of my life I didn't even really have the urge to quit. To me smoking was just part of my life and I learned to live around the addiction.
In the year 2008 I had a wake up call. I was allowing my entire body go to hell from the inside out. At this point I was weighing in around 320 lbs and I would get winded just walking up the stairs in my house. This was the first time I actually wanted to quit smoking. So I set up an appointment with my Dr to see what my options were. This would turn out to be the beginning of many failures.
Day 6 April 29th
Today started out a great day. Woke up with out being covered in sweat. Everything seemed to go smoothly. I went for a 7 mile bike ride and really enjoyed the smells around me. I notice that deep breaths come much easier and I don't get that winded when doing activities. I do notice there is an emptiness inside of me. It is like something is missing from me. I know what it is and I don't want to go back but I am still searching to find something that can fill that void. I went to the U of A today and felt great walking around campus. My self image is much better. Now I have no worries of being judged by those I talk to. I feel like I don't stink and I noticed that my teeth appear to be getting whiter. Only 3 cravings today. While 3 isn't bad they were intense. Every time I want a smoke and I start to play it out in my head how it would be ok to have one, I realize that right then and there I am choosing not to smoke even though I can and it helps a lot.
Day 7 April 30th
Today was overall a pretty good day. I am starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel. There was a little celebration at this point. I made it to the second milestone. One week and strong. By this point any sign of smoking is gone as far as by products and such. The damage is far from gone but the body does a great job at rebuilding itself. I continue riding my bike. Today I had only a few urges and once again breathing deeply and water are amazing. I do not recommend candy. Trust me if its sugar free and you eat one everytime you want a smoke you will most likely be in for some pain. Sorbitol is nothing to mess around with. What I am amazed at is how deep I can breath in. Usually this was a daunting task, and now I do it all the time. Kudos to me!